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Olivia Murphy's avatar

“It was, and I did, mom. Our house is my dream home. If I could live anywhere, it would be here.”

Tearing up over here reading this essay! Sara, this is beautiful and creative (and likely took so much time to craft!) Thank you for sharing your gift! <3

Sara Koert's avatar

Thank you so much, Olivia!! It took many months, yes...i'm so thankful I didn't give up (because I almost did, lol). I'm so glad it resonated with you--thank you for your encouragement <3

Kelsey Aldinger's avatar

Sara, this was beautiful! I can relate to so much of what you shared and especially loved this line, “It’s hard for me to hold dreams in one hand and contentment in the other.” I’m constantly fighting for that balance while I live in a home I didn’t choose but am so thankful for. Thanks for sharing this.

Sara Koert's avatar

Kelsey, i'm so glad you could resonate with this essay! Fighting for that balance is SO hard, isn't it!?

Rosalie's avatar

One of the best essays I've read in a while! Love it.

Sara Koert's avatar

Rosalie, i'm blushing, ah! I'm so glad you enjoyed it, thank you for telling me you did. Your encouragement means a lo <3

Laura Rennie's avatar

😍😭This is fantastic, Sara! What a great last line!

Sara Koert's avatar

Thank you friend!!! <3

Ashlee Gadd's avatar

Pascal’s dream house 😭😭😭 I loved every word of this.

Sara Koert's avatar

The sweetest, right!?? Thank you so much, friend <3

Lindsay Sledge's avatar

Ahhhh Sara!!!! I love this essay because it is from your heart and so stinking relatable! Love reading about your home and its quirks and its occupants who love each other so well! You put so much work into this and I’m so delighted to see it in the world!

Sara Koert's avatar

Thank you thank you thank you, friend!!! Wouldn't want to write on the internet without you in my corner <3

Erin Mount's avatar

I loved this so much! I also related to a lot of what you describe, as we are entering our 16th year in our “starter home.”

Sara Koert's avatar

Erin, you're so kind! I'm glad you could relate--that starter home musing has been on my mind so much lately. In this vignette I'm very tame, but in real life I feel very fiery about it, lol. Let's banish the term all together! Home. JUST home.

Erin Mount's avatar

Yes, I'm all for that as well!

Brooke Shorey's avatar

man. so good.

Sara Koert's avatar

Thank you, Brooke!!

Kendra Kruckenberg's avatar

Sarah, this is STUNNING!! We are long term renters because purchasing a home always seems to be just out of our budget (thanks law school loans) and I could feel so much of my own internal struggles and moments of joy through your words. "Relational intimacy galvanized by a lack of space" is 100% how I feel about the little rental house we have called home for six years now. Thank you for sharing.

Sara Koert's avatar

Ahh, thank you Kendra!! You totally get it. That relational intimacy is worth it all, isnt it? So glad you could relate!

Reb Smyth's avatar

Exactly what Kendra said! 7 years in a rental and at least another 5 years to go before we can buy and I felt every word and detail of this gorgeous piece in my bones—right down to the ‘little floor space there is in the U-shaped path of carpet around our queen-sized bed’ 🤌🏻 And I feel like the Joneses are every single friend from school/uni who was gifted a house deposit from wealthy family—can you tell I am several years behind you on the inner contentment work? 🤪🤪🤪 I just love your writing friend 💗 AND your beautiful voice!!!

Sara Koert's avatar

ahh, you get it, Reb!! That U-shaped path. So worn. Covered in clothes. Gotta wait for Michael to pass before I can walk through. And contentment--oof--it's a DAILY battle to surrender my discontent to the Lord. He's def. not done with me yet. Thank you for your encouragement, friend!! I'm so glad you listened too!! It was fun to record <3

Kristina Tucker's avatar

Sara! Goodness. This gave me chills- such a beautiful piece, and so many parts resonated for me. While not on our starter home, our home is so dated and would have been considered a "starter home" by most. I love this essay and am so thankful for you sharing.

Sara Koert's avatar

ahh, thank you, Kristina--so kind!! I'm so thankful so much of this essay resonated with you <3

Shelbie Withers's avatar

Wow, I love this so much, Sara. Later this year, we'll hit 10 years in our "starter home," so I really relate to what you shared.

"Not afraid to love the same place as it changed." - I'll be thinking about this line for a while!

Sara Koert's avatar

Thank you, Shelbie! You totally get it then. So glad this resonated <3

Ellen Tate's avatar

This is inspiring! We bought a "starter home" three years ago and will be in it as long as we can be. thank you for sharing so honestly. I can feel the love you have for your home and your family!

Sara Koert's avatar

Thank you, Ellen! I'm so glad you could feel the love I have for my home...that was my hope!

Meg Walker's avatar

Thank you. So much of this resonated with me and is what my heart needed to read in this season! 🏡

Sara Koert's avatar

I'm so glad this resonated, Meg!

Vanessa  Leaver's avatar

Thank you Sara for penning this. It’s intricate words that have so much meaning in your journey. We have been renters for 15 yrs and bought our forever home last year. Loved all of this!

Sara Koert's avatar

Thank you so much for the encouragement, Vanessa!

Stacy Ashworth's avatar

I think this is one of my favorite pieces I’ve ever read. My eyes welled with tears every time I saw myself in it, which felt like every few words. (I even also am in Michigan! But that wasn’t the main one.) ;) Thank you for writing this. I will carry it with me for a long time.

Reem Faruqi's avatar

So creative. Loved this!! We also had a counterccrack . And omg Ellen card . And i love that its your son dream home